Lately, I feel I have been dancing with vulnerability and authenticity. A lot. In working as a practitioner with others, and also feeling quite run down/frustrated/blocked/angry. I often feel nervous about not being ‘perfect’, smiley, happy and positive all the time but the truth is that isn’t actually always helpful to. The truth is that I’m not the only one dancing with vulnerability & authenticity. Right?
In my practice, it is essential that I work on issues that arise within myself and I do this through self inquiry, counselling and supervision. It is only through sitting with these difficult, horrible emotions that I can see through to the other side. Its as the late Leonard Cohen beautifully puts it, “There is a crack, a crack in everything. Thats how the light gets in”.
It is not easy to heed the call to do this self work, to firstly accept that it needs doing, and then to make the time to give it the attention it needs, putting aside all of the tasks that were nicely distracting from actually having to deal with it.
It may seem logical to think that a practitioner working with others who experiences hardships, challenges and is vulnerable may be ill equipped but I’d like to challenge that notion. In a climate whereby more and more people are dealing with pressures on personal, social and global levels, none of us can afford to bury our heads and pretend that it isn’t happening. It is happening. The beautiful thing is you are not alone in this, none of us are.
So what I’m talking about here isn’t burying your heads, no. What I’m talking about is the deep inner work of acknowledging, honouring, and allowing these difficult emotions to be expressed & even witnessed where possible (trusted person/counselling/supervision).
It is through this work that I have found, time and time again, a deepened sense of connection with the people I am working with. It is through healing these parts of myself that I am able to hold/better understand the very same emotions that may arise in them. It has directly increased my capacity for patience, compassion and ability to love more fully.
I wholeheartedly encourage you to do the same if you feel called to, to reach out for support with this and reap the rewards of the practice.
Em Desouza, Creative Arts Practitioner
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